Tuesday, August 29, 2006;
hmmmmm, snakes on the plane, haha, yes, b grade movie.. but it'snot boring, not the least, a no brainer action movie.
wanna watch pretty persuation.. yeah...
ok, i am happy... no matter what. just gotta watch tt mouth of mine...
hmmmm... ok... nothing much to say,
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
4:41 AM
Sunday, August 27, 2006;
i am such a happy lil duckling...
cheers to the pple who make me happy and feel blessed...
gd night pple, annabelle's gonna sleep tight, she hopes.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
11:30 PM
happy birthday benny baby, in advancejust came back from greenwood ave, had a pre celebration for ben's 21st...
he had his family and friends there, really really cool. it was so nice, seeing the family side tt benny has... i like families. had prayers and christian songs as well. quite heart warming. was classified under the clubbing gp with cheryl, gordon, alan and jarred. haha. so funny. i had fun. yup, and it was great laughing at the boys' senseless humour. gd natured boys. yeah. and gordon totally behaved himself today, pretty much, haha.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
11:07 PM
tonight was weird, hmmm.. yeah... but yeah, it was fun. hmmm, i like ann, she's so nice, and we were having such a fun time introducing ourselves one after another as anns, pple didnt believe us!!! they were asking us whether they were drunk anot. haha.
pple are so weird...
but yeah, it was at the very least different.
big hooyah happened at mos. hmm, i dun understand. i'm not from the media..
hope everything wld turn out alright. yups...
allan's balconies are awesome, i have this thing abt balconies. i love balconies, i miss my old balcony. not as huge, but yeah, i like balconies, there's this total chill out feeling abt it. cool place. yup.
hmmmmm, had a talk with kelvin abt my ambitions, but i dun really care, at least i have some, and yes, he is right, i gotta really think stuff through. and russ likes my weight gain, HAHA...
cool... ...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
6:43 AM
Saturday, August 26, 2006;
so tired, i did the thread mill for like 20 mins, and swam abit,like one or two laps, haha,so tired...
left early,was supposed to do the full shift, but i cldnt sleep last night, so yeah, kinda left early, was planning to go down to town to get some stuff, but decided to get home to get my ass in bed first. got dinner plans later. hmmm, arab food, exotic with a live band, sounds great, hope the company wld be alright as well. dun even know w i can wake up in time for it.
i am so tired, still gotta rush down to town before dinner to do a lil shopping. bah...
alrights, gotta catch some sleep.
i will miss the cutie pie at the condo, haha. so charming, haha. ah well.
and martin's like asexual as well, cool. haha
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
4:08 PM

this is my SUPER DUPET HOT canadian baby, eh sam, u better come back looking like edison chen. what happened to the saloon trip huh?? i totally forgot abt it.
WAHAHA..
i'm so bored. cheryl's at my place now, we just came back from kap. silly brother was staying up,waiting for me to buy macs back. i feel so horrid..
hmmm, we're thinking of going to bar baa black chic, HAHA, we thought it was baa baa black sheep. weird name.. hmmmmm... ...
sian, tmr have to wake up super early... going to the gym, bah...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
12:48 AM
Friday, August 25, 2006;
i've got a craving for bah kut teh, i prefer the clear soup kind, but the black soup base kind is not too bad as well, ever since last night, hmmm...
and i wanna eat teochew porridge again, with the oily side dishes, for exp, the the bar chok.. yum yum. maybe i shld start eating the porridge instead of rice. hmmmm...
i'm craving for food now!!!
i didnt smoke today, cos my throat hurts, and i'm so proud of myself.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
4:33 AM
Thursday, August 24, 2006;
i'm going to stay home tmr, i don't want to drink anymore. my health is failing..
totally forgot abt my appt today, woke up late, went all the way to whampoa for measurements, fuck man, the figures were shocking!!!! or maybe becos i was bloated from having my period. hmmm, and plus i am going to lose some wt, so i guess the outfit will totally like hang after tt, ah well, who cares. skinny pple look better in clothes, and so it is off to the gym tmr for me. i ate two dinners. fuck man.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
10:24 PM
bar none was ok, i left before i heard electrico sing, i mean tt was the whole pt right?!
velvet was amusing...
i didnt even know who i was there with man.
sherry is definately classifed hot stuff, i'm not les. HAHA
i'm in a loss. how come i got drunk??!?!?!
so weird. i didnt even have much of their free flow. so weird...
i just collasped at the carpark downstairs for an hr. martin SO POOR THING!!!!!
he said i looked too peaceful. tt's what u get from not sleeping..
fuck man, aha.
so tired.
gonna like collaspe. my main disapointment. not hearing electrico sing in life. yeah...
ah well. bye pple.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
6:17 AM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006;
H-E-A-D-A-C-H-E...and y cant mymum's mouth stop???
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
7:10 AM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006;
wow, today must have been one of the more wanted days of my life.
slept for 5 hrs, had 40 missed calls and 8 smses.
i dun care w i'm professional or irresponsible. i am not interested in doing it. and besides we are not bonded by a contract, when i say no, it's no, u didnt want to listen.
and becos of u, i missed out on other calls. and i've gotta postphone all to tmr.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
5:35 PM
don't tell me no way, i've to go.
F-U-C-K U.u dun force pple to do things. if ur deal isn't gd, i dun give a shit, dun fucking tell me exposure, i'm not a try hard, i don't care.
i've been bullied into it, quite a few times, and no fucking way i'm going.
i'm going to sch to have lunch with my friends. u can call and call. but i'm not picking up. too fucking bad...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
1:08 AM
don't tell me no way, i've to go.
F-U-C-K U.
u dun force pple to do things. if ur deal isn't gd, i dun give a shit, dun fucking tell me exposure, i'm not a try hard, i don't care.
i've been bullied into it, quite a few times, and no fucking way i'm going.
i'm going to sch to have lunch with my friends. u can call and call. but i'm not picking up. too fucking bad...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
1:08 AM
Monday, August 21, 2006;
i'm
F-R-U-S-T-R-A-T-E-D again...
yes... URGH!!!
why doesnt anybody take no from me? and try persuade me to say yes, last time, last time, last time. this is the ultimate.
must i cry and scream to get stop u from trying to change my mind? it really bothers me.
A-L-O-T.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
7:13 PM
haha...Jason says:
but for the time being... pls take care of yur silly self
Jason says:
byez!
the stupid shanghai thing was a scam. but fredrick got scammed, he didnt cheat. so poor thing, hmmm, yeah, dunno. ok, i'm not gonna pass arnd the msg to help pple look for girls alr, so scary.. lucky, my dad strict, HAHA. oh dear, i hope the girls didnt pass their passports to him. hope my rep didnt get affected.
singaporean girls damn stupid, we take things for granted. ann, ann, cannot let ur emotions get to the best of u, and think u can help this silly man from getting sued. but he sounded so poor thing over the phone.
oh dear, then d***** smsed me again, i thought he wld leave me alone. bloody hell. what's wrong with all these pple.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
4:13 PM

hello baby. say hi to canada for me!!!!! i miss u!!!
yes, i'll keep ur bks nice and clean and top up ur acc with what i still owe u, no worries. 330 bucks more,ok??? HAHA.. sorry sorry.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
2:47 AM
P-E-R-F-E-C-T...tt's what u are. no lies. miscommunication...:)just a lil bad, but's it's ok...xoxo
my world is perfect again...
and i really really dun care abt the stupid lil bitches at the field. they think being bitchy is being real? haha, ok, not if u go out of ur way to make pple feel hurt, not working in my case or hers.
u girls are just meanies...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
12:08 AM
Sunday, August 20, 2006;
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
10:22 PM
ok, i'm happy alr, doesnt matter. i know anyway...
hmmmm, at , least i know u're not perfect. and dun worry, non-perfection is perfectly a O-K to me. becos i'm not perfect as well. but at the very least TELL ME tt u're a cb or kb, whatever goes.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
7:03 AM
Kelvin - j'aime la nuit says:
then to explain to u, who put urself to this bloody moralistic pedestal
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
6:53 AM
i'm having too many guy friends alr.
guys never fail to giveme probs.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
6:30 AM
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
5:03 AM
i went berserk today.i still think i had a gd reason. yes, i do realise i've a huge character flaw,i impose my will on pple,i expect them to do this do that, the way I feel things shld be. i hate it,absolutely hate it when things dont go my way. whatever it is, i'm exhausted.
i love sam. NOONE can touch sam without ruffling my fury. he's a real gd friend, a little boy that i can trust my life with. and today's probably the last day i'm gonna spend with him, all the tears and joy and stoning that i've spent with him.

byebye baby, annabelle will alws love u... xoxo, (gd friends)
i'm disappointed with the world today, the basic concepts that it seem to exist upon. what happened? and yeah, the new face thingy, i've no fucking idea why they made me sound like i'm damn depressed over my r/s, pls... i like being asexual.
3 essays were what we were supposed to write. all tog, over 1000 plus words, but yet they took out one small part, improvised on it. yes, i understand it was to make me more humane.
yes, i had 3 failed r/s, and i do set more rules now for men. but tt doesnt mean i was treated badly, we were just incompatible. what happened to all the matured things i wrote out??? and they set the topics for us, clubbing, family and r/s.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
4:47 AM
Saturday, August 19, 2006;
i'm upset today, i'm upset with u and the fools in this world with u.
i get affected damn easily. fucking stupid of me, been kinda crazy recently. angry then sad, now affected.
and i dunwanna hear tt pple just want to fuck pple for the sake of fucking and throw the person aside. dun tell me all these. u pple can fuck and fuck and fuck, to ur hearts content. hear no evil, see no evil, say no evil.
miss andrea baby. one of the nicest prettiest girls arnd. angel. good to have nice friends. but dun feel like going mos again, was there last night, gonna meet kelvin and the guys ltr, maybe if he's ok with going for a while, then i can get him to sign me in and go look for andrea for a while... i'm not paying! i'm broke.
hmmmm, gonna meet sam first then go to roy's friend's bbq, just across the road for a while...
and i dunwant pple to judge pple's character by looks alone, it's damn disgusting. yes, judge if it's for a pageant or some product thing, but not as pple. i hate it.
i miss marcus... my friend tt gives me ans in the most sensible ways.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
9:27 PM
nice??? i did this myself, haha, but i think it needs more work, to get tt feel,hoho, and then incorporate the finished pic into my blogskin, HAHA..
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
11:11 AM
how do relationships work without trust??
maybe that's why it's always one way, your way or the highway.
i'll never take the highway, though, :)
it's ok, i'm over it alr, unless like edison chen went to check in the girls, and i missed out on being his next "girlfriend"!!! haha, sorry sorry, i'm asexual, but i've been crushing on him ever since sec 2, which is like 6 yrs ago, haha.
SO ADORABLE!!!!
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
10:55 AM
i'm so sad.my dad doesnt trust me, although he lets me do whatever i want in s'pore, but he doesnt let me do whatever i want overseas, i feel controlled and suffocated...
anyway, i tried to help fredrick, sent msges to girls in my friendster and called some.hope he can get the girls, and everything will be fine. argh, i hope my friends dont think that i'm some kind of mamasan or smtg.
so, will talk to him on monday when he comes back from shanghai, but he doesnt seem too pleased abt it on the phone, he thinks i'm stupid and naive. anyways, me and cheryl alr decided to apologise to the guard.yup... we calmed and realised we were in the wrong too. hmmm... i really wanna go with cheryl, cai xia, val and yeah forgot who else i called. it'll be so fun... the girlies tog, and we can celebrate cheryl's birthday too. the girls dunwan to go without me. and i feel awful that i most liekly will not be able to go becos my dad doesnt trust me.
sigh...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
6:46 AM
OMG,i was showing a really really ugly side of me, i'm so sorry. i didnt mean to be racist, but he was really really being mean, and i guess tt is why s'poreans are ugly, the service industry is ugly, tt's why the customers are ugly, and vice versa...shit man... yeah, gordon's right, i'm evil....... never thought of it tt way...
okok, my mean streak is over, i'm gonna be nice now. i apologise!
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
5:49 AM
ann ling says:
are u??
hi im cheryl. says:
no not really
hi im cheryl. says:
after blogging
hi im cheryl. says:
hahahaha
ann ling says:
haha. yeah
hi im cheryl. says:
im goin to cook
hi im cheryl. says:
hi im cheryl. says:
5 mins
haha, yeah, sorry... hoho, not angry anymore. haha
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
5:16 AM
ME AND CHERYL,WE ARE SO FUCKING ANGRY...
people, u gotta listen up, there's these stupid security guard at novotel... HE is so racist, he's like matt or smtg, he called me and cheryl stupid, just becos we're chinese, LIKE HELLO???
it's ok, if u tell us nicely, but if u gotta like up ur own ego a scale more,dun be rude, fucking idiot. yes, i called him names, like matt, who the hell is he to call us stupid?!?!??!?
i mean u're a working civilian servant, we're just paying customers, dunid to take it out on us for ur low paying job, and he actually had the fucking nerve to come scold us again outside. WHAT BARICADE?!>!>!hmm???
he probly will not get fired. but just chided abit, but i'm still gonna lodge a a complain. i wonder which chain is novotel under???
benny was nice enough to chid him for being rude to us.
but it was fun though, at mos, with gordon, cheryl and benny... yup..
went there actually to see norman and roy,was chilling at holl v before tt.
maybe we shld have went velvet, at least they arent so RUDE!!!
paying customers, HELLO??? service industry really sucks in s'pore...
hope tmr wld be fine. i spent all the money i have tonight, hmmmm...
AND FUCK MAN, my dad doesnt allow me to go shanghai for the fashion festival. was looking forward to having a holiday wih missy cheryl, poor fredrick, let's pray he doesnt get bankrupt. he's nice... but he's really stupid enough to sign the contract with starpeople of hk, in such a short notice.. tsk tsk...
jeffery chung??? hello, reputation bad, girls, UGLY!!!
okok, just dun laugh at the pics tmr, fuckign embarassing.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
4:58 AM
Friday, August 18, 2006;
i think i will have to kill myself, before the day is up..
BAWLZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZz
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
1:05 PM
haha, found out smtg interesting...
do u know tt south korea has no business men???
NONE AT ALL!!!!!!!!cos they're a communist country.
everyone knows the second fact, but not the first one.
i'm feeling like

this pple...
total grey, bah, feel like bawling, but i can find no tears to cry out loud...
pent up frustration...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
1:32 AM
Thursday, August 17, 2006;
D-O-N-T FEEL LIKE BLOGGING
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
10:39 PM
ann ling says:
and i realise there's smtg wrong with me
ann ling says:
seems like i'm getting angrier and angrier and meaner and meaner
.roy says:
it can mean that you want a change in your life, but you do not know how to go about implementing it...
.roy says:
you are probably bored with your current lifestyle...
ann ling says:
yeah, that's it...
ann ling says:
but why the weird reaction??
.roy says:
because you are not doing anything to change your present situation... too inert...
yeah, that is why...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
8:21 AM
oh fuck, and so she sleeps for two hrs and she wakes up. like what the fuck?
ARGH!!!
yst was a weird afternoon, haha, i had another weird dream that had smtg to do with some real life stuff that i was supposed to be doing at tt moment, but yes, was dreaming, and thus i didnt manage to turn up AGAIN. hmmm...
then it was calls and calls and calls, it's amazing how some pple dun exactly have a life, okokok, not talking abt most pple yst... just talking abt some.
OMG, i'm so bitchy recently. weird man...
i miss my yankee poodle. haha.
i better keep my big mouth shut and tight, yup. i know too much abt myself, HAHA. fuck man.
oh man, i so feel like bitching. gonna meet kelvin ltr for a movie and whining session again. yes. i'll annoy him to pieces but i don't care, i'm a whiner. i need to get it out of my system.
urgh... time to burn that little black book.
i'm gonna stay home with my lil brother... he's the best...
xoxo
so weird last night, i wanted to buy champagne for my friend, he didnt want it, like hello??? ann doesnt buy drinks for anyone ok??!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!? ok yah, he had tonnes of drinks as well. and so i bought a beer for benny, haha.
fuck man, i remember laughing at the 3 fatties on the speakers last night, so mean arh,i'm on a streak of meaness, so nvm. dun care. wonder why the speakers didn't collapse.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
7:41 AM
do what u fucking want!!! so not my fucking prob, and to all those dodgey arseholes out there, i'm not interested in ur money nor lack of morals. i hate pple making use of me. NOT ANYMORE!!!!!
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
4:17 AM
u know what??pple are so egotisical, and so fucked up. yup...
and it's so fucking weird, u just push everything to everyone else,pretending tt yes, it involves u, nope, it so doesnt, don't get me involved anymore. have ur own fun. i'm having mine, my life is so fucking fantastic without u idiots destroying it, and trying to destroy me as well. fuck off, seriously...
well, tonight, highlight, yes,
bye hansen tan... see u end of the yr, either in la or s'pore, pimp...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
4:11 AM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006;
cant sleep, bah... luckily, i got wake up call tmr, monica's gonna so kill me, if i turn up with eyebags and stuff. telok ayer, wah lau, where the fuck is that...
u know i think i better go back to my yoga, and meditate. foolishness of the universe doesnt concern me anymore. HAHAHAHA. siao...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
4:20 AM
tired, was late for appointment, had to cancel it, oooops, my bad, monica'sgonna giveme a wake up call tmr, haha... bah.. gotta wake up really early man.... hmmm... ...
then it'll be down to lil india to do threading, gonna bring sam to do threading too, aha. then maybe buy a cute dress or a top, haven decided yet... gotta buy my ax black jeans as well.
met cheryl and dennis at starbucks for a while, then proceeded down to suntec k-box, hmm, yeah, so not my idea... met daryl and steph there to my surprise, haha... small world, the dude's kinda mad, he burnt me, kicked me, threw ice and peanuts at me. accidentally though, haha... hmmmmmm...
anyway, i dunno what's so nice abt reading all these stuff and wanting to be updated with my life, it's kinda boring yah??? i'm so much more stable now, no angst, no nothing. just an amoeba...weird.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
12:17 AM
Monday, August 14, 2006;
so tired, have been missing my fav hk drama serials, everything's out of place now, cant wait to watch america next top model, haha... the girls are hot, well, some of them. at least they look like real models, haha. i understand nicole's thing with hot pple, they're nice to look at, appreciation of beauty, haha. just looking, not anything else.
went down to ubi, i tried to get out of it... hmmm. ah well, just complete everything by the end of this yr, and that will be it,i hope. yup. :)
wonder if d****** is shitting me or what. just really really dunwanna get into trouble. i get scared when i heard the word contract with this current proj tt i'm gonna work on,hate contracts, u cant just throw ur temper and walk away. why are pple so confusing???
met sam and marcus and justin in town for a while, everyone just happened to be going down to town, haha, saw ben's cute face in the underpass,16 yr old boy really grew up, haha and saw nicole with him, nicole joined us after a while. silly girl, really been nice hanging with her recently.
ok, tmr cancelled plans, haha, just heard stuff abt it, well, cant wait for lunch with derek and charlie!!! in sch!! haha, just like old times, derek got a pressie for me, yay!!!
i'm still feeling pent up frustration,but still happy at the same time. i guess i just need more sleep and less undubious pple arnd me. yeah..
haha
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
9:06 PM
oh, my com works fine now, at least i can play with my com, instead of pple.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
6:53 AM
i'm sick of u and u, and u and every fucking one...
go away...i hate everyone in the world today.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
6:51 AM
bloody hell, i think my computer has a fucking virus, i cant access the dumb pictures, it keeps shutting off. damnit, i've tonnes of pics there...
feels so tempted to curse and swear, but... i shall not.
ANGRY.ps: i just realised there's tonnes of bad english here, guffaws, ah wells...ok, i'm going shopping tmr, don't care, gotta get my ass down to ubi tmr too as well, and town!!!! BAH!!! argh!
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
2:08 AM
Sunday, August 13, 2006;
ok,this officially sucks, smtg wrong with photobucket,damn, i rather use kodak, but... cant link it up to the blog.
but it's ok, since photobucket has other cool features as well. wanted to do the photo strips!!! but some how photobucket keeps closing down, hmmm, dunno...
wanted to improvise on my blog today, when i've time. sundays are sleepy days spent at home, or maybe even a lazy short afternoon in town or a nice picnic. gonna nod off soon, slept really early last night, abt 3??? haha... at least i slept when the night is still dark, and woke up when the day is still light. i just realised i gotta brush up on my reading, yes, i read alot, but all i read is thrillers, fantasies (favourite!!!). yeah, gotta read deeper stuff... i miss poetry, i used to be really good at analysing them and everything, but i mention i was the best in the sub-lit level??? haha. yes sub, becos i hated the teacher who i thought was gonna teach the full module, and she ended up teaching and loving me, hoho...
i love my itunes, haha, but i need more cool obscure songs, haha, but i think pop is cool as well... i was just dancing along to bsb the other day, haha. everything's cool to me, haha.
gotta go get some photos from sam, went out with my thomson babies the other day, feels like nostalgia, life seems so far apart from thomson now, i only spend time with martin and sam from tt group now, everyone keeps playing stupid dota, even I quit mah jiong, hmmm, oh yeah, tt reminds me, my favourite jacket!!! still at thomson somewhere.
okok, i so have to get a digi cam when sam leaves, or my camwhoring will be kaput, same model as well, i love his camera, or maybe cos i love the owner, haha...
i'm starting to find the internet cool, yup... i rather play with my com then go out and keep thinking abt my com when i'm out.
and i dont understand the obsession with nelly furtado's promiscious, maneater is so much more rockin`!!!
okay, gonna sleep now, it's too bloody hot to be awake! meeting cheryl baby and jon lee at holl v later... gonna brainstorm abt his pool hse. haha... i like using my brain for something more impt then what to wear, where to go. sheesh... gotta get a life. maybe i shld take up a course,hmmm, what course?? design wld be just fun once in a while, not really interested.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
1:32 PM
stupid phone keeps beeping away, stupid battery...
i wished, oh i wish..blah... not saying...
hmmmm, dont know whether the photographer is trustable anot. shady shady guy... send comm card first then send credentials. or maybe cos it's too late in the night. weird rich guy. i wanna sit in and watch... the referal fee's not that impt anyways. ok, nvm, not gonna help find alr. i'm getting bored of it and worrying too much for the girls. luckily i asked the advice of another photographer, or i wld naively help get the girls. money isnt everything, money just makes things better. ok, so i will get the credentials and everything, so stupid, me, ann. cannot just jump into things without thinking.
i wanna learn photography, but i think i'll get bored of it, but everything is so beautiful from different angles!!!
was in town just now with nicole, brainstorming, haha, i'm not really into media and stuff, but just chipping in whatever i can, doing smtg tt's not bumming around. yeah. i miss my pasta... yeah... ...
okok, i'm gonna settle down and really get my life together.
support me yah???
tata
oh and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUEY!!!
xoxo
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1:23 AM
Saturday, August 12, 2006;
oh and i love wenting too, haha
better say before she gets angry...

haha, dork....
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6:04 AM
all i know is that i love cheryl and grace, and tt the feeling is mutual...
no matter the occasional childish unhappiness with each other, snide comments, and rude retorts, we're alws be bonded, with love...
love is funny, haha...
madness...

alws there for each other
XOXO
thanks for putting up with my stupid weird habits and grouchy tantrums, weird stoning silly half smiling faces, narcissism, and exageration, and weird over-protectiveness( i'm better now?? :) )
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5:56 AM
sigh, i've been a tad bitchy recently, making snide lil comments, i'm sorry, i dunno what has gotten into me, i'm feeling really really jaded, and tired, and just so sick of everything...
i apologise... bear with me.
:)
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5:50 AM
why oh why, today's fucking boring, but time past like nobodies business.
only had one gd news. hope i can find the stupid models, then i can earn my commision. pretty darn gd deal.
ok, anybody, must be hot and tall. photoshoot two hrs, arty farty nudity involved, payment's pretty gd, i'm supervising the photoshoot, so no worries, i'm the most prissy person ever alive, so i wont let pple take advantage. or anyone to recommand??? yup, call me... it's all in the name of art. yup...be comfortable in your own skin, y am i not doing?? becos i'm prissy.
HAHAHA...went down to town to meet baby cheryl, got accessories, a chain and a pair of earrings. wanted to get a dress. but went down to town too late...
met the rest, went down to dempsey, then zouk. zouk was shite today, the music was great, but hmmm, the mood, wasnt. before long i was asking to leave, aha...
didnt even want to go down, just obliged, and then, hmmm, yeah. waste of time.
cheyrl, grace and me, pretty much decided that we were boring pple. i shld stop drinking alcohol, doesnt get me high much anymore. no more zouk for me anymore pple... i feel old...
i cant fuck arnd anymore, not literally, but fuck arnd with my life. gotta do smtg worthit, feeling like a bummer and pretty darn useless...
i need motivation.
too lazy to put up any pics, maybe tmr.
tmr's gonna be a quiet night, no more usual sat zouk night, favourite. but no more...
aug is a sad mth, friends leave...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
4:35 AM
Friday, August 11, 2006;
damn,still cant sleep.bah. was on the net fooling arnd the blog, with cheryl...
failed my mission to embedd a audio file. hmmmm... ah wells, i'll find help soon, haha.
met up with cheryl for supper at kap, and then had breakfast. full and satisfied, but i still cant sleep, blah...
for the boy who sank deep in the oceangolden sands, seashells,
he sits at the edge,
wondering abt the world.
answers came too fast,
and too soon.
waves washed up,
edging in,
like the hands of time.
mistaken,
he smiles sadly.
reaching out half-heartedly.
no one bothers,
bubbles float up.
that was what's left of him.
sad, losing the innocence we once possessed...
superficiality is all arnd, despite what it seems to be.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
9:19 AM
Thursday, August 10, 2006; cheryl baby, u're hilarious :)
cheryl is super duper adorable in a super cynical way, haha...
dun take men as half empty, take them as half full of shit. hoho...
men... HAHA...
i'm an amoeba, i split into two and reproduce myself. an amoeba is a single cell organism... NOT A HAEMOPHRITE, pls....hmmm, wrong spelling i think.
i feel sick, cant sleep. tsk tsk, this is what u get from drinking. drinking, smoking bad. and last night i switched back to marlboro menthol, my throat freaking hurts now... hmmmm.
my mummy's funny, she's mean sometimes, haha, alws complaining to my dad. but she's so cute, oh ho... ok, centrefold coming out on 19th aug. hmm, 19 is like special date for me. worse break up, on the 19th, birthday on the 19, and yeah, i cant remember. oh the centrefold's no special, just coincidental.
everyone's being funny and adorable today. hmmm, dunno why.
and nope, i didnt go to the gym at all, again. oh well, aha.. :)
roy roy, must bring back a cambodian baby for me to adopt.
oh yeah, met this cool old guy, who really looks liek billy bob thornton, haha.
and derek, u didnt get my staff discount thingy from ax, so u better get me some nice stuff, ohho, cos u didnt get me a bd gift!!! humph...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
10:33 AM
hmmm, the yacht party was hmm, haha, ok, better not talk abt it.
at least there was liek free flow of wine and food there at one fifteen there, hmmm.... still hse wine, but not so bad hse wine, but still pretty alright, i guess if u're not picky.
velvet was alright, hmm, champagne was pouring in non stop, hmmm, and met a few old pple from the past, some quite funny, aha.
sam got pissed drunk, which was funny, cos he was alws the driver but tonight he didnt drive, which was gd, yup. martin sent him home,i saw like silly lil boys passing out on the cushions.hmmm... but they're adorable... yeah...
wednesday nights, only velvet for me, cos of the champagne, everywhere just sucks,i hate wed nights in zouk,phuture, 1) music sucks at zouk, 2) fucking molesters at phuture. yup, only sats and fris for me man.
HE is so fucking adorable... HAHA... yup, ok, still an amoeba, a fuckign one cell organism, but he is, yup.
:)
see u next time, aha...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
5:06 AM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006;
oh blah, funny how money just seems to seep away from my hands.
intended to do a lil bit of shopping, but yeah, again... did not.
better go do my shopping before every single cent runs out.
hmmm, my shades. yup, first one on the list, maybe second.
tmr is nicole's yacht party, her friend's actually. bringing martin along with me, gonna see some pretty cool fireworks. too bad norman cant go, haha, wanna see his new look, hoho.
went down to the hospital to visit kit today, he's so much better, haha, he can talk to us now. me and martin got him a teddy bear and a card.yup...
so cute, hoho...
hmmmm, almost bumped into the person tt i let down the most in my entire life at the hospital, i was so guilt stricken tt i wanted to run off, sigh, oh well.
will never do it again, and i dun even have the guts to tell her tt i'm sorry,
she'll probly forgive me and all tt, but i cant face her. i suck, well, sucked, it's a lesson tt i learnt. a lesson well taught...
had dinner with sam and justin, haha, i just hate tt stupid armani cap with the red star, so fucking communist, the most hilarious thing just occured involving the cap, HAHA...
watched hard candy, well, it's a disgusting show, haha, so perverted, ok, i wldnt ruin the twists in the show. the beginning was promising, haha, slighty perverted, but it just proceeded on to a totally gross and weird show. yeah...
woodman is still the best paedophile show i've ever watched...
find myself more cynical, getting more irritated with stupid idiots.
and yup, i didnt manage to get down to the gym, haha, and didnt manage to go down to the lib to get my html for dummies, so much trying to learn how to design a website, too bad information system in my sch doesnt teach all tt. was hoping they taught web designing and photoshop, haha, well apparently not.
sam told me abt
www.webmonkey.com, hmmm, yeah, i'll go take a look. haha
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
3:04 AM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006;
hmmm,this will do until i can do smtg more me... i guess.
hmm... fonts and everything abit too small.
gonna borrow html for idiots, haha...
ok, i've got an idea of my short term goals, that is within the a yr:
1) go on a trip with my friends, gotta make some plans, or i wld lose my bet, aha
2)learn html, basic web designing and phtoshop
3)get myself an ibook, with my own money, haha
4)finally driving license
5)swim proper laps
6)quit smoking
7)get used to a healthy lifestyle, gym, and jogging
and yup, i didnt go to the gym today, haha... oh well, nvm
waiting for martin to come pick me up, and we'll visit kit at the hospital, then it's down to town, where i'm gonna do a lil bit of shopping. :) yay...
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
4:57 PM
i hate lieing, YES!!!!!!!! i lied, i'm sorry. i just cant stand it anymore. thus resorting to lieing, okok, i'll come clean one day right in ur face!
yadayada, if anyone dares to ask me what i blog abt?? i'll fucking stab u in the heart,and rip ur tongue out. one thing i cant stand is pple asking stupid qns. there's just some things u tell pple who are concerned and NOT some kay-po pple.
only certain pple can ask. yup... if u get a cold hard stare, or more likely a reluctant smile, then obviously u're not one of them.
and oh yeah, the title of my posts will be the state of emotions tt i'm in.
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
5:11 AM
haha,ok, i decided to start blogging again...
requests from yuey and wenting.
yup, alws giving in, i'm such a giver, nvm it's ok, i enjoy making pple happy.
ok, this is just the starting, i'll try to do up my blog, my way...
cheryl poopy, i love u, but loco is SO PINK!!!!
i cannot post on it, haha.
it's so u, and not me, u're my loco baby..
xoxoxoxo..
raining now, waiting for roy to come pick me up for supper, yes, supper again, lol. haha, i tried, i really tried going on a diet starting from today, but i guess eating then sleeping's not gonna help much...
yeah, nvm it's ok, i'm gonna be a gym bunny tmr. yup..
:)
I cry and I laugh... All at the same time...
2:08 AM