i'm depressed.

caution: entry below extremely dangerous to the mental health, well my mental heath, bleah..

exams are nearing, and to be honest, i've no idea what the hell i am doing.
i've quite a heavy workload this yr, cos i'm retaking 2 modules. pbf which is easy enough, econs, i haven even step into a single econs lecture this yr. i've nv done a single assignment or test or prelims, i even failed to turn up for oen of my exams and left the hall half an hr into one of the papers for the past twp yrs except for the first pbf assignment which i put my heart and soul into, but the lecturer failed to mark it. been to sch i say max 5 times this yr and the lectures have ended alr.

taking 5 modules this yr, all theory shit. so not a memorising person, more of a figures and science kind of students. i cant afford to retake any subs next yr, as i alr have 5 modules to take next yr.

argh, the only thing i know of econs is rich pple are happy pple, happy pple vote for the gov, pathetic. and i cannot afford to fail econs this yr, cos next yr wld be my last yr, and some of the compulsory modules i've to take requires econs, argh, how i hate econs, been a science student my whole life, i cannot grasp the ridiculous concepts of econs. and i refuse to.

screwed up my as and ended up being an arts student, wich so suck for me, no offence to arts students, but it's just not my thing.

went down to kap with ann today to study, but i cldnt concentrate, did fucking ratios which are super duper easy, but yeah. left half way to have drinks with ann's friends.
i've been playing too much, i really cant force myself to study now.

crap crap, and time is running out for me now. plus i have no idea what am i gonna do when i graduate. honestly, i can predict that i wld end up with a half fuck degree, from a fucked up sch. cant realyl depend on my parents forever, even if i wanted to, well i want to, i'm sure my parents wldnt. i've a perfect sister. yup. this blows.

ps: yuey i left my cam with grace, haven uploaded the pics yet, tt's why it's takign so long, apologies.

and so after reading this, pls pls do not distract me from my studies, it's for my own good, it's hard for me to resist temptation.